The akashic records and my past lives

Hey Magikal friends! I wanted to share with you all about my experience with my akashic records reading that has had one of the most powerful and most memorable impact on my journey.

Let’s begin with what the akashic records is all about. The akashic records is a dimension in which individuals with clairvoyance can tap into and channel the masters and teachers. The akashic records is seen as all the information that has ever existed and ever will exist in connection to events, all living beings, and places of existence. The masters and teachers are entities that reside in this dimension who have access to all this information. The masters and teachers speak through the channeler/akashic records reader to provide you with answers you are seeking about yourself and situations. You curate a set of 1-3 questions to ask the masters and teachers that are focused on you, your obstacles, your situations, questions involving your relationship to other beings or the earth and your purpose and place within it. It is a very helpful tool if you are feeling stuck and needing some answers to help you better understand what you can do to adjust your perspective or actions to best serve your own life and mission in this life.

I had scheduled my first reading in a very dark time in my life. It was the beginning of covid. I had just recently quit my job at the psych hospital. I was going through rabbit holes of conspiracy documentaries, feeling angry at the world and the behaviors of humankind in response to covid and the political climate happening at the same time, and awakening to the manipulation of the government and their agendas. The fear and hate programming being splashed across every media outlet and sheeple as I like to call them choosing to be brainwashed and jumping on the bandwagon spreading their fear, hatred, anxiety and being consumed by it. Watching people and clients becoming angry if anyone had different opinions than them and what was different than mainstream thought. Feeling totally alienated for thinking for myself and rejecting subscribing to this programming. Watching people and families disowning friends and family because of this, constant online bullying, people in positions of power supporting these behaviors and actions. I was beyond disgusted, disappointed, frustrated, hopeless, and afraid for where we were headed as a society and the systems we are expected to live by. I didn’t see how we would come out of this. My Clair abilities had become stronger, and I was receiving downloads of information constantly with no idea what I was meant to do with this information. Was I supposed to do something about it or was I just supposed to be observing and staying in my own lane of wisdom, was I crazy? I needed this reading, hoping to seek answers that would shift me out of this darkness into better understanding of where I was at and where I was going.

My reader is such a sweet sole. Her voice immediately brought in a sense of ease and calm. She had received a ton of information from spirit about me from our consultation call prior to our session. We spent about 30 minutes discussing what she had previously channeled before going into the akashic records. Every session she sets out a table of items that she intuitively is called to pick for each person she reads for and discusses all the items. I will tell you about two of the items that stood out to me in my memory. The Vogel Star of David which she kept returning to throughout the reading as the masters and teachers used it to answer questions I had. There was also a crystal dolphin totem. She highly recommended that I purchase and work with these energies in my daily life to support my journey, that it would bring me to a higher state of consciousness and connection to the divine, my gifts, my work, my healing, and wisdom.

The Star of David is one of the most ancient symbols in human history, it is a holy symbol in the Jewish tradition as well as many other cultures and religious traditions. The hexagon shape symbolizes the union of opposites that creates life itself, the fusing of male and female, of heaven and earth, and of light and darkness. Often referred to as the “Merkabah Vehicle” or the divine light vehicle used by ascended masters to connect with and reach those in tune with the higher realms.

The Star of David is a multidimensional vehicle used to strengthen our connection with Source. It allows incarnation to and from the spiritual plane into earthly experience. Marcel Vogel developed the cut of the Vogel Star of David combining the spiritual properties of Quartz crystal. This unique cut results from the special faceting of the Quartz crystal that creates a six-sided star. He was an IBM scientist focused on refraction and reflection. His life work cumulated into scientific proof regarding energy flow, the effects on the human aura, the role of crystals in healing, remote healing energy, and the limitless power of the human mind. The Vogel Star of David crystal he created was used as protection using the male triangle facing out and an upside-down female triangle facing in toward the body. Dr. Vogel believed that this double triangle cut creates a powerful enhancer of energy and provides protection to the wearer. It can be paired with other crystals for love, health, and abundance. It enhances other crystal energies.

The Star of David

The Vogel Star of David

If worn with the male triangle facing out, he found that it protected the person from EMFs and protected the wearer from other negative forces- other people’s negative thoughts and energies, earth bound spirits and other lower-level frequencies that often cause problems on a psychic level. It enhances the persons aura and sets up an energy shield so negative energy simply does not affect the wearer. It also pushes out, clears, and dissolves negative energies already in the aura to clear negative blocks and energies that are already around the person. This is very important for those who are energy sensitive and especially doing healing work on others. It draws in prana (life force energy) from your environment. The wearer of this pendant with male side facing out fills the crystal with peace, well-being and love then radiates this life force into the body.

To draw energy into the pendant, it can be turned around and worn with the female side facing out. This side should only be used when you are really in a sacred place or with a healer whose energy you want to draw into you. The wearer of this pendant wearing the female side facing out draws prana (life force energy) from you, filling it with peace, well-being and love amplifying these qualities and radiating them into your aura.

As you may see now with everything I had going on at the time of this reading why this crystal would be so important for me to connect with and utilize. I was moving even more into my spiritual power and awakening, overwhelmed by the darkness of the world, needing to find greater inner balance in the scales to access more light within, to remember the light on my spiritual path while being surrounded by darkness. I will touch more on this later when I go into specifics about the light and dark balancing act.

The other object on the table was a dolphin quartz crystal. Quartz crystal being known as the master healer and most powerful of all crystals. The dolphin spiritually represents enjoyment, laughter, sexuality, intelligence, community, living in unfiltered freedom, living in balance, play, innocence, strength, power.

The dolphin also has an element of ferocity and power that the dolphin brings in times of danger to protect or save their own species and other species from attack. They travel in packs at great speed with incredible vertical mobility swimming circles around predators like sharks who are not as quick or agile. The shark usually a lone creature gets intimidated by the number of dolphins and lacking the speed and agility to keep up. The dolphin quickly nose dives down then races up under the shark nose punching the stomach of a shark sometimes flinging them way up in the air out of water. They utilize echolocation to sense objects around them, therefore are rarely caught off guard. There is power in their numbers and their survival skills that have evolved to become quite miraculous. Dolphins’ intelligence has shown that they can mimic, show emotions, and figure out problems. Their connection to emotions drives them to protect other species and even people from danger. They are like guardians of the water displaying wisdom, empathy, protection, but also joy and play as they love to interact with humans.

They are also known as master healers, they are high vibrational beings that heal other beings.  My reader told me that there is a reason why people who are sick or in dark times go swim with dolphins. Most of these people are not consciously aware that their higher-self and/or spirit is guiding them to swim with dolphins in order to receive healing. Most people in their conscious minds just think wow they are so majestic, how cool would it be go meet some! They are completely unaware that they are actually receiving a healing in their interaction. The dolphin knows it possesses this ability and could be one of the reasons why they enjoy interacting with humans as much as they do. It is one of their many purposes and gifts to our world.

Spirit told her that I need to incorporate this spirit animal into my daily life, in my meaning of life, and how I live it. I’m too serious sometimes and forget to play, be free, to love, to find gratitude in my ability to heal others, to embrace all the pleasures in life, to be part of community, and to tap into my own power of protection when needed, but that I am safe and protected in my wisdom otherwise. I needed to emulate the dolphin’s personality and characteristics. I will go into further detail about this later when my new spirit guide came through.

Now that I have provided you with pertinent backstory of objects that will be introduced throughout my reading, we will journey into my records. There will be some statements and meanings from the masters and teachers that they repeat to create greater understanding. Please excuse any repetition you may notice, it will help solidify their teachings.

She began with a prayer to enter into the records. She had told me previously that once the prayer is complete we will sit in silence for a few minutes for her to make contact with the masters and teachers. It only took about 2-3 minutes. She described a scene they were showing her of one of my past lives. I was a woman, a pilot. Flying a plane solo above the Atlantic Ocean. Looking out the window confident in my abilities to fly this plane. This was a time in history when it was unheard of for a woman to fly a plane or really do anything other than be a housewife or secretary. I was seen as a trailblazer of the time, most likely in the 1920’s to 1930’s. You would think I was probably Amelia Earhart based on this information. Although, that name and life has no emotional or soul remembrance to me in this life, but it is pretty cool to think I might have been her!

The masters and teachers stated, “Something went wrong. You did not make it to your destination.” I immediately connected the dots. I had previously mentioned in my blog about my mystical journey about my nightmares every night of being eaten by sharks in the ocean around the age of 3 or 4 years old. This fear burned into my memory following me throughout my life into my 30’s. Over time my story had changed into being my greatest fear to be in a plane that crashed in the ocean and being eaten by sharks. I had no idea why at the time I added a plane into the mix when I never saw a plane in my nightmare. It was hidden in my subconscious, but I just thought yeah that would be the scariest way to go so it makes sense. Every time I flew over the ocean, I was frozen in fear that it would come true. I shared this with the masters in teachers. I asked, “Was this why I had this fear?” They replied, “Yes, my dear, this is what happened to you. It has already happened, it will not happen again, you have nothing to fear now.” Then they proceeded to blow away the energetic fear and past life energetic chord connected to this trauma. I could feel a cool breeze flow onto my stomach area. Creating this warm tingling sensation with an overwhelming feeling of safety and freedom that is hard to describe. Tears began rolling down my face uncontrollably. I had felt free of this fear in a literal instant. I can’t describe to you the release, I was in shock at the power I just experienced. How I could be in fear my whole life then in the next moment be utterly devoid of fear, as if it were never there. If I had any reservations about the validity of this reading, that were gone too. I was all in.

The masters and teachers asked me, “What question do you have for us?” I had written on a piece of paper a long question that combined about 5 questions in one because I knew I could only ask 3 questions in total. I tried to cheat the system in whatever way I could to get as many answers as I could in our short time together. I felt nervous about asking such a long question. Therefore, I tried asking only a portion of it. They said, “Ask it how it you wrote it, it is important.” I nervously asked my very long question that I will paraphrase for you. I asked, “I am angry at the world right now. I see so much darkness and evil in the world and I don’t know what to do about it. I feel like the world is getting darker and more lost. I have seen visions of God or the Source coming in to shine the light on humankind to save us from our destruction. Is this true? Does that also mean that some of us will not be saved, and the others will remain lost or leave this life? If I am being shown these things, what am I supposed to do with this sight? What if I don’t do enough to help this change? Is the world going to end?”

They laughed at my question and said, “Yes, that is the question we were expecting.” They reminded me again of the Vogel Star of David and its meaning of light and dark, the balance, the scales are necessary in our evolution in the earthly human existence. They said, “There will always be balance. There will always be darkness and light, never one without the other on earth. Humankind is in a state of imbalance right now, the scales are tipping, and it is a necessary means to an end to bring about the purging of the darkness that has been building for thousands of years. This is necessary for the activation of higher vibration or light to come to tip the scales back into balance. The darkness is a catalyst to activate the light higher vibrations awakening humankind to evolve further into ascended higher consciousness. The darkness awakens the collective to all truths or realities, what healing is needing to take place, to awaken the lightworkers and healers of the world to embrace their mission and work. Again it is creating a more elevated conscious awakening to humankind. Those that choose to see the truth and see the opportunity to become awake, to heal, and heal others will move more into balance and light. Those that choose to stay asleep, in the darkness, will have a much different experience, but both are needed because the darkness awakens others to the light. Without chaos and darkness, the light cannot exist or have a purpose. There will always be times in human history where the scale tips from on one side more than the other to act as a catalyst for change. All are necessary and needed.”

I understood their words, but I also felt very angry that the darkness is needed. I expressed my anger towards all of the people doing evil acts and doing unthinkable things to other living beings and the planet. The masters and teachers stated, “You must remember that this is their journey to live their path. There is a karmic pattern to fulfill that has many choices and roads one can take. Karma’s true meaning and purpose that humans have come to understand or refer to in not the true/real meaning where you are punished or given a life that is horrible because you did horrible things in another life that you must pay for. There is no such thing as right or wrong, evil or good, correct or incorrect. This is something you as humans created as a way to navigate the word from a place of fear and survival. As a soul, a higher level frequency, there is understanding that there is no action you can do that makes you bad or wrong, it is merely an experience. A choice you make in which there is an opportunity to learn and grow to complete your karmic cycle, turning it into dharma. Or you may choose to remain making the same choices, continuing your karmic cycle. Each life is an opportunity to live as many experiences as you possibly can. As a spirit or a higher-level entity you understand this. You select lives and experiences that would help you complete your karmic cycles. You may live one life as an abuser and the next life as the abused to understand each level of experience from both sides to heal, to become more conscious and vibrating higher. You also may choose to live a life again as the abuser to give you the opportunity to awaken to the impact your actions and choices have on others. Choosing to stop this cycle by healing yourself. Instead altering your life course to help others through empathy and love to complete your karmic cycle. These variations of life are never judged as bad or failure in the spirit realm, it is merely information guiding you in how you would like to proceed in your next life to become more conscious, more healed, with more experience. As a spirit you understand that you have infinite opportunities at Earth school if you want, or you can try something different, or even choose to not come back. Most spirits do want to return to Earth and are excited for the opportunity.”

They also reminded me that, “All souls exist in the highest level of vibration and consciousness,  humans call their connection to their soul, the higher self. Human’s higher-self/soul, their true self would never choose what you call horrible or evil acts. They are not truly who they appear to be, this is not the true self and expression. This is who they are with pain that is unhealed from many lives of trauma being expressed through their actions. You can choose to hold empathy in your heart by understanding it isn’t truly them. Their true self would never do these things, but what they are doing is necessary for the collective and those in their soul group. Their actions bring about change, opportunities for others to heal their karma, for others to make better choices because of their actions impact, trickling out into the collective consciousness- affecting the entire system. They serve a purpose, but also have opportunities to alter their path and effect on humankind if they awaken to their choice to heal.”

The masters and teachers then circled back to my vision of the Source coming back to shine the light on humankind to save us from destruction, in fear the world was going to end. They said, “Your human mind does interesting things. You have a very strong imagination that you attach to the meaning of your visions. The vision is true, but the meaning behind it was coated in lies based off your human ego and fear. It is half true and half false. To find the truth in spiritual visions you must eliminate all fear and negativity within the meaning to see the truth. The world is not ending. Humankind does not need saving. The darkness is not taking over. The darkness is purging because it is time for the light to establish more balance as it has done throughout your human history time and time again. You are right about the light of the Source shining in, it is always there. God is always a presence, a frequency that is within you to tap into anytime you need. You are never without the light. The light will always be there even in the darkest of times, and your success to find your own inner balance utilizing the light is entirely based on you.” They then referred again to the Vogel Star of David to remind me that this balance is within me, it is a choice.

They said, “You are a healer, a lightworker, and you are feeling the sense of urgency based off the lower frequencies in the world activating your gifts to create change. You are not expected to do this or must do this. You do not have to do anything with this vision or activation of your abilities if you don’t want to. If you choose to do nothing, nothing bad will happen because of this, and you will not be wrong for choosing this. We know that you will do something as you have done in every lifetime before, as a healer. You had agreed eons ago to act as a catalyst for change through healing, among all the challenges in history. You are truly amazing, we bow to you and all the healing you have done and what you endured life after life. You sacrificed your life to heal the collective many times.”

I wanted to know more about this, but also told them how much the word God triggers me. That I have so much anger about that word. The words Source or Universe has a stronger connection for me. I told them, (like they didn’t know already) “At a young age I told my parents I was an atheist and refused to go to church anymore. Hearing the word God made me angry, it made my stomach turn. The thought of Christianity and its history made my blood boil.” I am embarrassed to admit, I got very angry telling them about this, but this is what is real.

They were extremely understanding and compassionate about my feelings. Devoid of shame or guilt, or any judgement whatsoever. That was very comforting because my human mind thought I would be ridiculed for saying this to such enlightened entities, at the same time my soul knew this was a safe space to express.

They said, “It makes sense why you feel this way. You do not have to call it God, it can be whatever word describes your connection to the highest frequency/vibration there is- love, unfiltered freedom, acceptance, joy, laughter, pleasure, connection, consciousness, creation, abundance. Use whatever word to describe what that is, it doesn’t matter the term you use, the meaning is what matters. We use the term God, because that is the term you humans have used to describe this frequency of the creator of consciousness, the energy that is the highest level of consciousness. It is not a person or a place, but the brightest white light, the source of energy. The horrible things done to establish this term, the religions and their actions done in the name of the creator are again not seen as bad or wrong from the spiritual perspective, but what you would deem as horrendous and evil. Those that created these practices and school of thought were living in fear. Holding onto something that would make them feel powerful enough to exist in the fear, to think that they could control it and their fate through God’s will.  To feel protected, but what and who they were doing it for was a lie made up from the stories perceived through the lens of fear missing the true meanings. These religions are all fear based off human ego, trauma, and suffering. In your past lives as a healer, shaman, mystic, priestess you have faced the wrath of Christianity. Watching your children, villages, and yourself be crucified all because you were connected to divine source providing healing and wisdom that instilled fear in others who did not share this connection or understand it. You have lived through so much pain and suffering that has followed you into this life. Your soul remembers that these religions are not the truth because it has held onto the pain.”

This again connected dots for me. I asked, “Is this subconsciously why I never wanted children in this life also?” They replied, “Yes, you chose to live this life without children not just because of what you suffered, but because you chose this life to be free, to live life as you please without the responsibility so that you can do whatever you want to do. You are free in this life.”

I remember telling them I was a therapist helping people and that all of this was making me not want to help people anymore. How do I move forward knowing this wisdom, while the majority of others stayed asleep feeling frustrated and impatient wanting others to wake the fuck up. They said, “This is something you choose to do life after life, but you do not have to. Although, you have an unbelievable gift to combine spirituality with psychology to help others heal in a truly miraculous way. If I can heal myself from these past lives, I can move forward to live as a healer in a way that is free with limitless potential and abundance. It is not your responsibility to change other’s understanding of life, but by sharing your wisdom and removing your emotions connected to what they choose to do with it, you will create a wave of change in the collective and feel free in this role.”

I did not know at the time I was going to be a life coach focusing on witches and spirituality, but this reading helped me feel safe to live freely in this role. Knowing this was my opportunity to live out and proud without fear that I would be killed or shunned from society, this was my time to shine.

This information powerfully impacted me. After the reading I began doing the deep work to heal the shadows and past life wounds. I had a new invigoration and thirst for knowledge to build my wisdom and skills as a healer in whatever school, training, class I could take.

It wasn’t until a certain ceremony in Priestess School a year later when I connected to it in a visceral way. Our guide and teacher conducted a past life healing ceremony meeting with our ancestors, to show us what we need to release to move forward in this life on our sacred path. I was immediately flooded with visions of watching my children, my villages, and myself being crucified. I also had another memory of being in front of a large crowd of villagers in pilgrim times at a shipping port. My hands bound, looking down and seeing my dirty bare feet. Blood on my legs, wearing a burlap sack. I was being taken across a platform while the crowd yelled and threw things at me. I did not see further than this, but I knew I was drowned for being a witch. I did not need to see anymore to know. I fell to the ground bawling my eyes out, feeling all this pain, immense fear, total agony, and heartbreak. I heard my ancestors say, “Now that you remember and have seen, you have the power to heal this, to set you free.” I cried for a long time, then regulating myself to tap into the guided healing journey of the group where we were being lead through a healing to release what we discovered. I felt the power of my ancestors and spirit guides at my back protecting me and encouraging me to feel my strength, to remember my skills of grounding and giving permission to release this karmic cycle of fear and sorrow, of tragedy. This was no longer my story. I remember feeling this sense of weightlessness, this heaviness lifted off me, I was finally free.

I had to spend some time after the ceremony to process what I had just experienced, feeling validated by the information that the masters and teachers had told me a year prior, and feeling so empowered that I could heal this for myself. This is the shadow of the witch wound, the countless past lives us healers and witches have experienced where we were shunned, ridiculed, murdered, deemed as crazy, evil, weird, outcasts, hunted and all that wounded experience living in our subconscious mind without our conscious awareness. This is what keeps us in the broom closet, afraid to share our gifts with the world, afraid to live a life that is outside of what society deems acceptable or “normal” or “good.” In constant fear that we are in danger, will not be accepted, thought of as freaks. Therefore, shadow work and focusing on the witch wound is the most important and powerful piece to the journey into becoming who you have been called to be, it is a remembrance, an opportunity to heal a karmic cycle. Everyone called to this path has been a healer before, and this is something that if you can work through with help, you can embrace this path fully. We are awakening to this calling in this time of history for a reason, because now for once, it is safe to do so, it is needed. It is the time of  healers being activated to their mission because society needs us to level the fuck up in all this darkness.

I asked, “Do I have to come back again?” “They laughed and said, “That is completely up to you, you have lived countless lives, sacrificing yourself and others to help humankind, you have lived all experiences you set out to live. You do not have to come back if you don’t want to. We have a feeling with what you discover and learn in this life, you will want to come back to share this with the world, but that will be up to you.” Of course, my sassy self said, “Okay, I hear you, but I am not signing up for this again, I’m tired and feel ancient. I am ready to finally rest.” They said, “You are a primordial soul, existing since before time and the planet existed.” I asked, “Are all souls primordial?” They responded with, “No, not all souls are primordial, you have come from the stars and in your soul contracts chose to be born onto earth to elevate and heal the collective.”

I told the masters and teachers about my goal to become a healer (not a coach) but not a therapist. I wanted to have retreats to heal with my animals at my animal sanctuary. They laughed saying, “This is why we interrupted your reader with the dog.” When we were about to start the reading my reader was distracted by this loose puppy in her front yard outside of her office window. She said, “This has never happened before, very bizarre. I feel called to go see what is going on.” I waited for about 5 minutes for her to return to the phone. When she came back, she said, “That was bizarre this little puppy was loose in my yard, and it would not go to its owner. It kept running back to me and allowed me to finally pick it up to give to the owner.” My reader stated after the comment from the masters and teachers, “That is why spirit sent me that dog. It stood out to me because that has never happened in a reading before. It is your strong connection to animals, a message from spirit to say yes that is what you are being called to do, follow your heart, your are free.” This felt so nice to hear. I feel so passionate about my purpose to help the collective, but my heart has always felt called to help animals since I was a child. The vision to combine humans and animals healing together was something that ignites my fire and excites me to no end. I felt in this moment that this was the path that I was meant to work towards without the fear of making the wrong choice in my human mind.

As my reader asked if I had any more questions before closing the records, I did have a pressing question about my Pawpaw. My Pawpaw had passed away almost a year prior to this reading, and I had not received any visitations from him, I did not feel his energy at all. My sister had a dream about him that I described to the masters and teachers. “He was sitting alone in a house in the woods in Alabama where he was from. He looked very sad, he seemed lost, there were lots of spirits around passing by, but he felt disconnected. She was afraid he was stuck somewhere or lost and alone, needing help.” I asked the masters and teachers, “Is he okay, is he lost, does he need help?”

The masters and teachers quickly went searching for my Pawpaw’s soul and let me tell you he came in hot. I had an otherworldly experience, I could see him and could hear his voice in my mind without sound, like a sense of knowing what he was saying but not hearing actual words in my mind.

My reader channeled for him saying, “Hey sugar (what he would always call me), I am here, you wouldn’t believe where I have been! I am more than okay. I am everywhere and in everything all at the same time.”

I understood this concept in theory, although my human mind wanted to connect to black and white 3D constrictions of understanding feeling like my brain was breaking trying to visualize this.

He showed her this image of him in a garden with a bench he was sitting on, patting his lap for me to come sit on it like I would when I was little. I saw this exact vision in my mind before she started describing it to me. I asked him while crying, “Why haven’t you visited me? I’m sorry I lost touch with you as I got older.” He said, “I am around whenever you want me to be around, now that we are connected again, I can come visit you anytime you want.” He then said, “I am sorry that we lost touch too, I am sorry that I didn’t know how to accept you and support you in life. I lived in fear and didn’t know how to accept who you were fully. I don’t feel this way anymore because now I know the truth of the real God, and what I practiced and thought in life about God was not the truth, it was a lie.” My Pawpaw was a devote Southern Baptist, his funeral had his pastor preach to all of us about repenting or we’re going to hell if that gives you an idea of his POV. I always knew that my Pawpaw loved me, that was never a question, but we grew more distant the more independent and alternative minded I became. We had the closest relationship when I was a kid, he was who I clung to. I always felt this soul bond and connection with him that I didn’t feel with others in my family, and now I know why. The older I got and the more I resisted “normal” society and its rules, the more family and tradition lost its appeal to me. I pushed family away and stopped trying, thinking I was too cool to connect, or didn’t care to even though it left me with guilt for years that I didn’t try harder once they were gone.

He told me, “Let go of your guilt, I forgive you and ask for your forgiveness too. It wasn’t all on you. I didn’t know what I know now. I am here for you now if you want me to be one of your spirit guides?” Of course, I said, “Yes!!” I was so excited to know that he would be one of my guides and we could continue to build a whole new relationship together, knowing he is always at my side guiding me.

He offered to answer any questions I had about the multiverse, the afterlife, to help me channel information that helps my work with clients and anything else I wanted to know. He said, “Remember the dolphin and the real meaning of God- unfiltered freedom, pleasure, love, joy, connection, intelligence, play- you can tell me anything about everything. I want to know everything you are going through. All you must do is picture me in that garden and come sit on my lap.” I cried tears of joy to be reunited with him. I felt so much love and safety.

As we were wrapping up the reading he popped back in quick. Out of nowhere I just put my hand up in the air to catch a blown kiss. I had no idea why I did that. It was very strange like it wasn’t me consciously doing that. She then proceeds to say, “He wanted to blow you a kiss before he left.” I laughed and said, “Well, before you even said that I caught the kiss not knowing why I did that.” She said, “He laughed and said, she gets it!” That was a powerful moment for me, just trusting what I am called to do or feeling without doubt.

3 hours later when my reading was only scheduled for an hour and half, the masters and teachers urged her to now close the records. They usually do not keep people in the records for that long, but they felt like I needed the time. It was important to get back on my path and out of the darkness. They were right. This is exactly what I needed, and I was more grateful than words could ever describe. It was the most powerful experience I had ever been a part of. It changed my life and I still feel the effects to this day, 2 years later, like it happened yesterday.

This reading helped me heal my wounds from past lives. Releasing me from the weight of the trauma to live my life fully in the light publicly doing my service to humanity without fear and pain. It set me on a path of learning everything I could jumping back on the journey to help others heal whole-heartedly. I was able to drop my anger with society, to view this darkness with compassion and without the responsibility to change anything. Remembering that I am free to do anything I want. To tap into the dolphin spirit when I am taking life to seriously and need to separate myself from the ego of right and wrong societal expectations. To buy and use the Merkabah in my daily practice, it is on me at all times. I meet with my Pawpaw daily. He pops in during my sessions to help me with my clients and gives me loving guidance whenever I need it. I feel his love and his presence every day, it is such a gift to experience. I am focused on my journey now to help the collective heal knowing that it is leading me towards my goal of having an animal sanctuary to heal animals with people. I feel free, I feel empowered, I feel reborn.

With love,

<3 Courtney